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Post by shawncameron on May 14, 2006 22:13:26 GMT -5
Killian was content to just sit there and touch her, holding her in his mind, never letting go of that picture. just as he did not drop his hand from her face. His thumb slowly brushed her cheek again as the silence stretched on, but he was not the only one moving.
Shivers ran up and down his spine simultaneously as her fingers brushed from his jaw down his sensitive neck to rest just above what he knew was one of his many, many scars. Was this what it felt like when he touched her? His skin where she had brushed him felt hot and cold all at once as the shivers continued growing down and settling bellow his stomach.
He had told Certain that he lock turn everything away… but she was doing a very good job testing those locks…
He managed to keep his body under complete control though his breath did quicken ever so slightly at the effort. That could be explained by her question however as he too moved his hand from her cheek, down the side of her neck, following her arm to rest his fingers on her fingers wile the hand that had been in her hair moved back down to cup the other side of her cheek. “Yes… most of them at least.” Slowly he used his fingers resting over hers to move her hand that fraction of an inch lower to touch the scared skin.
It stuck up and was rough, not like most of his scars, this one still had a bit of the wood from that tree stuck in it never to come out and always to remind him. “Most of my injuries before and after the ascendant where broses and did not leave scars…” not any a person could see anyway. His voice had become soft, and though his smile was still true it had that old hint of sadness and regret clinging to its edges.
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Post by E on May 14, 2006 23:00:08 GMT -5
Feeling his hand run down her arm, Apri found herself not nearly as in control as Killian as a shiver finally ran thru her body. At his touch, however, it wasn?t one of pain or fear, just a reaction to something she was completely unused to. Letting her fingers be guided, she was surprised to find the scar rough under her fingers. She had only felt one scar before, her own, and it had been very smooth and small, nearly unnoticeable unless you were looking for it. Why this one stuck up so was beyond her.
Tracing her fingers gently over it, she looked back up to him. Having watched him smile with both a mask and without, Apri found herself noticing the slight sadness in his smile and she withdrew her hand as she looked down.
"I... I'm sorry... I..." letting out a half laugh she turned her face back up again finding a smoother voice once again. "Do you mind if I stay with you... just for a time... After seeing you dream like you did... I'd like to know you can sleep in peace..."
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Post by shawncameron on May 14, 2006 23:15:49 GMT -5
Killian leaned forward just a little as she pulled her hand away, wanting to hold on to the contact. He blushed foolishly as she gave a small laugh and he realized what he had done. Fighting an inner battle with himself he finally took his hand from her face running it through his hair and rubbing the back of his neck a little embarrassed, though he did not let go of her hand.
“Don’t be sorry… most people are to scared to ask about my scars. I might not be able to see them, but I can feel them shutter every time I have to role up my sleeves for something.” He shrugged but smiled the sadness retreating just a bit. “They don’t bother me as much as they used to but… I think its best for everyone if I kept them covered…” his voice trailed off as what else she had said hit him.
“You… you want to stay here…” he dropped the hand on his neck and pointed to the ground as though he really had to ask, “but aren’t you tired? Wouldn’t… wouldn’t you rather get some sleep yourself?” after tonight he was sure the nightmares wouldn’t be bothering him for a wile…
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Post by E on May 14, 2006 23:37:34 GMT -5
"Yes, I am a little tired." she replied truthfully. Thinking of her own bed, however, she wondered if she would be able to slow her racing mind, especially now, to be able to fall asleep. Shaking her head, she smiled at the old habit and wondered briefly if she would ever simply answer him with words before a shake or nod of her head.
"But I have not been able to sleep yet... And I doubt it would be any different if I went to my own bed now." Looking to his own bed, she found it the same size as hers; big enough to fit nearly four people comfortably. Pointing to the other side just as he had pointed to the ground, she smiled. "I could lay on the other side so I would not bother you and wait for you to fall asleep... I think its big enough for the both of us... and I promise I won't be here long..."
Finding her hand still cupped in his as his other fell from her face to run thru his hair, she was surprised to find it itching; itching to turn up and touch his as well. Deciding it might not be such a bad sensation to remedy, she slowly twisted her wrist until her fingers were curled into his palm. Opening them, she let them run across the more calloused skin of his hand as her fingers curled around his hand so that their palms matched. It was a gentle, cautious embrace but an embrace all the same.
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Post by shawncameron on May 14, 2006 23:56:19 GMT -5
Killian didn’t trust himself to say anything after she explained herself, pointing out the size of his bed as though it was a bench they could share in a garden. He was torn between elation that she would even consider sharing a bed with him and horror about what that might mean to her. He had shared a bed with all of his siblings more then once, had even fallen asleep with Corana after one of her nightmares, to him it was nothing but a sign of trust but to her… her who just now realized the difference in his touch from others?
He was eased out of such thoughts by the movement of her hand under his. He didn’t move as she sifted her wrist, her fingers brushing over his palm and sending new waves through his body, before she wrapped those same fingers around his. His happy smile pushing away the last of the sadness Killian returned the small embrace squeezing for just a moment to prove to him self more then her that he was not imagining things.
His voice was soft, “alright Apricus… you can stay as long as you want.” He tilted his head just a bit reaching up again with his other hand to brush her cheek and then her hair before his smile turned a little mischievous and he scooted himself over to the cold side of the bed, the side she had indicated for herself though he had not seen the pointing finger. He stretched out his arm so as not to let go of her hand as he laid down on his side, propping his head up with his other hand “but you get the warm side… no arguing.”
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Post by E on May 15, 2006 10:37:12 GMT -5
The slight squeeze from his hand and his agreement to let her stay made her feel more in the right here in his company. Watching him move to her side of the bed, however, she found her self pursing her lips at the stubborn man.
"But I was going to take that side..." she said now looking down at the much warmer blankets where he had been laying. "Now how are you suppose to fall asleep in cold blankets?"
While she waited for an answer, she turned and laid herself on her side and bought her feet up onto the bed. She knew he would not give in and take the warmer side so she wasn't going to wait for him to. Rather than going beneath the blankets where it was warmer, however, she stayed on top; one arm proping up her head much like Killian and the other still gently holding his.
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Post by shawncameron on May 17, 2006 5:26:00 GMT -5
Killian took on an innocent expression that would fool no one as he shrugged at her question, he knew she would protest but he was happy to feel the bed moving under him, telling him that she was lying down in the provided spot. “The same way I did when I fell asleep earlier, like this…”
Still smiling he laid fully down the arm that had been propping him up laying close to his chin wile the other still held on to Apricus as though it was the most natural thing in the world. He made a show of snuggling deep into the pillow and wiggling a bit to get perfectly conferrable under the blankets before heaving a large sigh and closing his eyes. He took two relaxed breaths that could fool most into thinking he was sleeping before ‘peaked’ through one eye his smile turning mischievous, “See not so hard.”
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Post by E on May 21, 2006 20:20:34 GMT -5
Apri had raised her eyebrows at Killian's words and watched, rather amazed as the man looked for all the world as if he had fallen asleep in a matter of seconds. Wondering for moments if he was actually asleep or not, she smiled when he peaked open an eye, smiling himself.
"Mmmm, but you are not yet asleep now are you? Its one thing to pretend and another to actually be." She argued playfully, shifting ever so slightly so that she was in a slightly more comfortable position. Sighing lightly, she let her own eyes close for just a moment as she waited for his answer.
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Post by shawncameron on May 21, 2006 20:57:04 GMT -5
Killian couldn’t help but snicker grinning as he wiggled again, this time seriously getting comfortable before relaxing every muscle, preparing for sleep. “True… but no matter how talented I might be, I don’t think I could ever fall asleep in two breaths.” He tightened the hand holding hers for one more moment before relaxing it too and closing his eyes again, “though now that you’re here… I’m sure I’ll sleep the best I have in twelve turns.”
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Post by E on May 21, 2006 21:08:25 GMT -5
Apri, as innocent as she was, couldn?t help but find herself too far into sleep to answer his words. She did hear them and they had registered, she was just too far to have answered. Feeling the hand tighten, she smiled slightly as another sigh left her lips before she fell into a restful sleep before she could stop it and move to her own bed. She hadn?t realized how tired she was...
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Post by shawncameron on May 21, 2006 21:55:44 GMT -5
Killain didn’t need her to say anything, as he breathed easy again and in a few moments fell back asleep…
He was back on the cliff but he was not afraid, the grass below him was green, the water a sparkling teal and the sky… the sky was a thousand colors, he didn’t know if they where accurate but he didn’t care, it was color, and more then that was the woman who had come up next to him. She was no longer a faceless beauty; it was Apricus and smiling she reached for his hand…
In his sleep Killian smiled.
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Post by E on May 21, 2006 22:31:47 GMT -5
The sound of a morning robin broke thru the thankfully dreamless sleep that had captured Apri in the middle of the night. Taking a deep breath of the morning air, she was pleased to find a familiar sent of wood and string oil. Senses slowly coming back to her, she paused, taking another, slower breath. This time she recognized that pleasant musk that underlined the smell of string oil and tensed as the rest of her senses came back along with the memories of the night.
I'm in my bed... I made it to my bed... didn't I? she asked herself silently, almost afraid to open her eyes. She had promised to make it to her own bed in the night, what if she hadn't? Willing herself to be in her own room, she finally registered the slight weight on her shoulder along with the warmth against her upper back. She tensed, finally opening her eyes.
She was not in her own room.
Looking out across the bed, she found much of it between her and the edge. No... She couldn?t be... Reaching up a shaking hand, she found it touching his own up on her shoulder and she jumped, quickly rolling away until she sat on the opposite edge of the bed breathing heavily.
She had.
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Post by shawncameron on May 21, 2006 23:52:17 GMT -5
Killian had slept soundly throughout the entire night moving only slightly to get more comfortable as he wrapped his arm around something warm and comforting in it’s self.
The comfort continued even after the light came into the room, as he could not see it, and the song birds began to sing, there song just fitting into his dream, even with Apricus jerked away he continued to sleep, pulling the other pillow closer to him to cover the cold stop that came with the woman leaving.
It wasn’t the same, and frowning he rolled over, closer to the edge and the warmth that had just left him. “Apricus…” he mumbled in his sleep.
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Post by E on May 24, 2006 20:02:58 GMT -5
Apri stood and turned toward the bed, both arms wrapped tightly around her flat stomach as she looked at the man lying half naked in the bed. How... How had she managed to be comfortable enough with a man to have fallen asleep in a bed with him? The storm was one thing... she had been exhausted then. But this?
The sound of his voice speaking her name made her loose all track of thought as a soft, fragile smile threatened to tug at her lips. It was such irony, the way he had stolen her heart. She had hated the way men looked at her, so he came to her blind. She had hated the way people held doors for her, he had walked thru hers. She had hated touch and he had gone thru every pain to keep people from touching her. It seemed every safeguard she had built around herself, this man, scared and hurt by his own life, had managed to break down.
Watching him roll a little closer, she reached out a hand, pausing like she had so many times before her hand ever made contact with the skin. Thoughts ran thru her head like so many memories only to be lost in two little words; my rainbow. Her gentle hand reached down to brush his grey hair back from his soft face as she leaned a little closer with three words of her own upon her lips.
"I love you..." She whispered softly, so soft she wondered herself if she even said them. So much had happened to her in her life, she wondered if she could, in fact, even know what love was. If there was anything, though, this had to be it. She was thankful he was not a morning person and still asleep.
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Post by shawncameron on May 24, 2006 20:23:19 GMT -5
Killian smiled… he didn’t know why but something was making him smile, deep down in his subconscious he had heard those three words, words he had longed to say for sevendays but was too afraid to voice. He wiggled a little closer to where the warmth had been sighing at the touch of that warmth on his face brushing his hair away, how nice… how did they know it was tickling my nose… “Love… only one… love…”
His face relaxed but twisted a little wile latter as he shifted to lay on his back… and then back on his side. Finally his eyes fluttered open, “Klah… bathroom… then klah.” He scooted closer to the side of the bed; to out of it to realize that the fact that he wasn’t alone should disturb him, through his feet off the side of the bed and sat there for a moment rubbing his face before getting up and stumbling to the bathroom.
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